i went.

We had reservations on the 10:20am Orient Ferry, then a 2 hour drive up to Schenectady. I spoke to Judy (my boss) at 8am and said I didn't think I could make it. She said I'll call you in a half hour. She knows it would have killed me to miss everything and not be there to obsess over the details of the Arts Summit.
At 8:15a I got out of bed. By 9:00a Judy and Angela were at my door and helped me gather my stuff into the car. I thought I'd change my mind... I could barely lift my head.

Needless to say.. I didnt change my mind and now I can say first hand NYS ARTS Summit 2009 was a success! I'm very glad I went, it was great to see everyone. The event went well.. and I held my head up like a trooper. Inside I wanted to crumble like a house of cards but with the help of make-up and determination no one had a clue how miserable I truly felt.

Mid day Tues. I felt like my body was attacking itself again. I left the conference and curled up in my hotel room for a few hours. I was thankful for my mommy who drove up to Schenectady just in case of an emergency. It was very comforting to know she was there.

There were a few phone calls while I was in the room, catering, the band, sound equipment. Enough this n' that to make me realize there was no way I could miss the dinner and show. So I rallied myself. Once I was up I was ok, and felt pretty good for a while...but left the dinner early and immediately went to bed.

Wednesday was uncomfortable but I was up and functioning. Thankfully, I don't think anyone knew just how much I wanted to be in bed. I left the conference a bit early to drive home with mom... all I wanted was to be a sleep. The fatigue was creeping over me like a big wet blanket.

I'm so glad I went to the conference. Lesson learned no matter what...get up and go.